Flapjacks and Pancakes

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Panda rice balls..

Panda bento box..

Panda cupcakes..

Panda loaf bread..

Panda ice cream..

Panda latte..

Panda sushi..

Panda ramen instant..

Panda bread..

Panda cheesecake..

Panda toast..

Panda pao..

ALL OF THEM LOOK DELICIOUS AND INCREDIBLY CUTE!!!

Unknown to most friends and family, I’m agnostic. I attend masses, novenas, and other religious gatherings for formality and respect as a baptized Catholic. (Sometimes, I consider myself a “washed-up” Catholic.) I never volunteered about my beliefs. Unless people ask me, I don’t say anything. Not that, I didn’t want to be challenged. To me, it was this: “Even if I lose in a debate, it won’t change what I believe in. Even if I win, it doesn’t mean I’d converted someone to my belief.” I just didn’t want any conflict. It’s more fun when everyone gets along, despite differences.

One of my atheist classmates once asked me why I chose to stay in the middle, instead of totally disbelieving God. I answered him that science and its branches have no definite answers to anything. I wouldn’t go beyond that by concluding God doesn’t exist just because I don’t see Him. When a religious friend challenged my beliefs, I told him that it wasn’t God that bothered me. It was the concept. If the Bible was written through “the inspiration of God”, it doesn’t mean it’s credible.

In an elaborate sense, I put it: “inspiration” may have facts, but it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s entirely true. That’s why it’s under “opinion”. Fact bases itself solely on what has been seen or observed. But it doesn’t mean I’m excluding the possibility that God exists. In a world I view as a never-ending domino file, I don’t see the living (or the once-living) being responsible for the push or the creation of it. It had to come from an external force. Hence, my concept of God.

Of course, the domino concept did earn me enemies from both sides. It’s always either you believe or not. There will always be scrutiny for staying in the middle. But there are government laws in believing in God or otherwise. Then I broke no rules in having half of both.

When Facebook (questionably) blocked my first account from uploading videos and photos sometime back, I finally decided to create another account and, in the process, my Twitter and Tumblr accounts. My single “E” (S.E.) account’s supposed purpose was for me to be able to upload photos and videos online. But since the ban had been lifted months later, my second account was useless. I wasn’t even able to upload anything. My option then was to deactivate it permanently, but unsolicited advice gave me an idea. A personal account wouldn’t be so bad. At least, I’d filtered my real friends in it.

In my first account, double “E” (D.E.), I’d added people I only play apps with, people I barely know, and people I don’t know. I also “LIKED” too much. (Not that I’m against it, I just realized the obvious isn’t really meant to be “LIKED” all the time.) My first account looked like a dry run, come to think. But I didn’t want to clean up because I thought it would be rude. So I left it as it is. I frequently used this account since it was my first and official. But it got too crowded, tiresome, and annoying. I decided to deactivate D.E.

Of course, I was asked why. I answered my usual, “I got bored…” line. Was I bored? More of bored and annoyed. While pride can be annoying, pretense can be boring when you see it in almost everyone. With pretense running the show, people can lose touch and sight of reality. I didn’t want to have that kind of view.

I don’t blame Facebook for most of its users’ ethics, though. How we behave will always be up to us.